( Intro )
( Union Plants Are More Productive Than Non-Union Plants )
( Christiania )
( Drug Trafficking )
( Barcelona (1936) and the rest... )
Last Saturday: My only day off and I had nothing to do. That evening my mom told me to clean my room (as if I was 5 years old). I left to go to the store and I had forgot she didn't want me leaving the house until my room was clean. She said, "Where do you think you're going? You need to clean your room!" I said, "I'm just going to get some cereal at the store." She seemed iffy about it, but let me go. While I was at the store, I got Darrell some sake because he wanted to do some asian dinner thing for his girlfriend for their anniversary.
Completely forgetting about the fact that my mom wanted me to clean my room, I called Darrell thinking, "Well, since I'm out I can just go drop this off at his house." I called him and he said he wouldn't mind hanging out. I haven't hung out with him for a while and I was lonely from doing nothing else but work and school all week. So we chilled that night and my mom called, "JASON! YOU'RE A LIAR! YOU SAID YOU WERE JUST GONNA GET SOME CEREAL AND COME BACK HOME!" She told me she had taken all the clothes from my room and threw them into the backyard.
Sunday: I picked up the clothes from my backyard in the morning. It was fucking cold. Then my mom got super mad at me for no reason and kicked me out of the house for like 5 minutes with no shoes on. Later I worked from like 12:00 pm to 9:00 pm. I was completely depressed that day at work just thinking about everything from my mom, my lack of free time to myself, my lack of healthcare, not having a girlfriend and the pain of walking around at work while my dick painfully rubbed against my underwear.
Monday: Finally, fucking Monday rolled around. Went to school early, came back home and got dressed for work. 3 pm to 11 pm. Just another shitty day to my week.
Tuesday: I woke up early, went to school. Waited 7 hours (like every Tuesday and Thursday) for my second class of the day. Had to leave that class 20 minutes early to go to... WORK! I worked from 8 pm to 11 pm.
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This semester is killing me. My old friend Mark (who I stopped talking to because all he ever wanted to do when he got his car was harass hookers on Nebraska Avenue) messaged me on MySpace. He said he was starting some ska band and he quit Wal*Mart. As much as I hate Wal*Mart, I can't even tell if that was a good idea for him.
Then this girl I fell in love with a long ass time ago messaged me over YouTube. Fucking online relationships. But it was kind of nice hearing from her again. She said she had watched the Puppy Bowl and it reminded her of me because I used to hang out during the Super Bowl with Darrell and we'd drink while watching the Puppy Bowl. It was fun. Her birthday is also coming up February 6th.
Lastly, that awesome girl from work, Lyndsay, wants to hang out today between classes. She'll probably come over and we'll play some video games. Although I'm doubtful, I really want to ask her out. I need to get some cajones by the time she comes over!
- Music:"Graceful Concessions," Tom Gabel
1) Lots of places for activism.
2) Darrell's moving there.
3) It's not Florida.
I still can't tell though if this idea to move there is a sporadic one or one that I'll actually follow through with. I just feel so ready to change my surroundings yet so unsure. Some people make traveling look easy, but I'm not so sure I'm familiar with it.
It's funny also, because all my friends wanna leave for either California or Washington too. It just seems like the thing to do. Like some sort of crazy change in my life that's well needed after spending most of it in Florida.
- Music:"Look Away," The Max Levine Ensemble
At my work lately, some kids have been trying to know me more in real life at work. The thing is... I often question their intentions. For instance, the other day as I was driving to class I get a text. "Hey, you working Friday?" I was like, "Nope." He says, "Cool, you wanna go to this party me and Chris are having Friday night? We're trying to get people and maybe have you get us the alcohol." So I made up some excuse not to (which was actually somewhat valid). Besides, I always rather hang out with my close trustworthy friends over these kids at work. I don't trust their intentions. Also, I don't like supplying underage kids with alcohol. If someone underage drives drunk after drinking the beer I bought them, guess who's gonna get the smack down from the law? Me. And uhh... homie don't play that.
Then this other kid texted me yesterday, "Hey, you wanna go to the hookah lounge after work?" And they always ask me to do shit on Friday when I always have plans for Friday nights with friends. It's not their faults though, it's just the reason I never go through with their plans. Then he went on to say, "But yeah, after the hookah lounge, I'll probably have to stay with you the night (because his parents would be upset if he came home smelling of smoke)." He just assumes I can let him sleep over at my house. My mom would get pissed if I came in the house and woke her up at 3 am with some other kid.
Honestly, I know I come off as this sort of weak character in life. Maybe I look like the kinda guy who'd do anything to look cool and feel accepted. "Yeah dudes! I'll totally hook you guys up with alcohol man! As long as I have you guys as my friends!" But I'm not that weak person they take me for. I don't have to go out on a limb to feel accepted. They're not my social crutch. It just bothers me that they play that game and they're adolescents.
Anyways, on a brighter note about friends... I am talking more with Emily (from where else but LiveJournal!). Emily, you're awesome! I didn't think I'd personally meet anyone on LiveJournal but I'm happy I did. Not personally as in person but as in... phone calls and texting. I wish it was in real life though ofcourse. Tsk tsk at me never being able to find people as amazing in real life as I do online.
- Music:"Starch and Carbohydrates," by Rosa
Talk about not having any direction... I've set my college goal to be a programmer. Sounds good, right? Here's the catch... I have no idea what kind of jobs come with that. But I know that 1) I like computers and 2) I'd like to get to know more about open source software. So hopefully I can get myself a job that doesn't suck but also doesn't compromise my ideals.
Anarchy and Source Code
Hopefully I can put all this loneliness bullshit I've been spinning in my brain lately behind me and focus on getting other shit organized. I talked with some guy from Clearwater named Dave. Hopefully we can start some type of collective in the Tampa area and see how it goes from there. Oh yeah, if anyone knows of any radicals in the Tampa area, hit me up and tell me! I'm recruiting!
That should be all for tonight. Oh, and finally... with all the infamous rumors of LJ shutting down, I found it funny that it seemed people were posting more than usual today. Like everyone on here now is working to save LiveJournal. lol But yeah, I wrote too much shit on this site for it to shut down. Fuck that! Keep posting up stuff!
- Music:"Daylight In the City," Strata
Reality! That's what I've been wondering about lately. Ever since it started feeling like that Krystie girl (from Georgia) isn't as into me as she says she is. And to be honest, I'm not that into it any more. I'm not into Internet relationships any more. I'm more into sexual satisfaction and defeating my never ending loneliness I feel each day.
Last night, my friend from work (his name is Day) invited me to go hang out with some people from my work. So I went over and it was pretty fun. They're really nice people even though... I feel like I come off as kind of odd, so I sort of feel like they'd talk bad about me if I wasn't there. They do tend to gossip. It's not so much about caring what other people think of you as it is... wondering if I should spend my time hanging out with people who might not really like me. Even though Day seems like a genuine guy.
I am just sort of wishing I could feel normal with girls. Some times girls act flirty, serious or just funny with guys... but I never see girls get that sort of reaction from me. I'm definitely the opposite of a lady's man.
So maybe in 2009 I'll learn more about what's real. How do people genuinely feel about me in real life with me being so shy. And when I discover the tragic truth that everyone truly thinks I'm just ugly, snobby and socially dysfunctional, it won't be so bad because I'll have already suspected it so much that I just accept it. Or maybe 2009 will be the same thing as 2008. It sure feels like it.
- Music:"Thugz Mansion (acoustic)," Tupac featuring Nas
Meet Michael L. Connell.
Yes, today he is nothing but a pile of ashes, if even that. He was a republican web master for George W. Bush, Karl Rove and also John McCain. He spent his life working with thugs, helping them get into office and promoting their oppressive agendas in America and abroad. He even helped rig the 2004 election for George Bush.
Mike's close friend had warned him also. He would tell Mike not to go flying around because one of Washington DC's thugs might sabotage his plane.
Well, Mike was going to testify against members of the republican party, but on December 19, 2008 his plane crashed in Ohio turning Mike into a bunch of smoking ashes.
The moral of this story is... if you fuck around with political mobsters who don't care for human life, you too may just find yourself burning to death in a ball of flames some day.
Merry Christmas Mike!
Then I was on some rollercoaster type thing. It was like a video game. I was able to swerve the entire thing in some direction with my strength. The point of it was to maneuver it around hazards sticking out from the side walls. I kept seeing this one girl on the rollercoaster. She looked really cute. I wanted to ask her how old she was (you know when you see a girl who looks good but she's borderline too-young-looking). I wasn't able to ask her though.
I woke up with an odd feeling this morning. And I really want a girlfriend, ha. I always think, "Any reasonable girl my age who'd give me a chance would also wanna be able to have sex." But because of my current condition... that's pretty much impossible. My urologist asked on my last visit if I had back surgery and I did when I was really young. Well, when they do back surgery some times they have to hit this one area... and he said that it could've sparked more sensitive nerves into my penis. That's why the head of my dick constantly feels irritated unless I apply this stuff called Lidocaine to it. Atleast I think that's my problem. He said there's medicines that could stop those nerves temporarily, but those medications could also have side effects. God, I need to get a girlfriend though.
- Music:"Daylight," Project: Citizen
Without a fair warning, the workers of Republic Windows & Doors were laid off weeks before Christmas. By law, the company is required to give a more advanced notice before the lay-offs. You don't just say, "Fuck you guys!" and kick all the workers onto the streets.
Here's the problem I see with this story. The union members are now protesting with a sit-in. But this is not the time to sit! I had hoped (and predicted) that there would be some sort of revolt. This is not what I had in mind. Instead of sitting around... the workers of Republic Windows & Doors should be taking back their factory. Fuck their wages... it's time for them to operate the factory and get the gears turning again!
It's so God damn American for people to always take the shitty way out of their problems. Capitalism is the cause of poverty... Americans excuse their unjustified economy, "Well! If you just work hard enough!" or "It may not be a perfect system, but it's the best we've got!"
People need to learn how to take control of their own lives. I have nothing to work with in this country! :(
So first off, what is religion?
re⋅li⋅gion
–noun 1. a set of beliefs concerning the cause, nature, and purpose of the universe, esp. when considered as the creation of a superhuman agency or agencies, usually involving devotional and ritual observances, and often containing a moral code governing the conduct of human affairs.
2. a specific fundamental set of beliefs and practices generally agreed upon by a number of persons or sects: the Christian religion; the Buddhist religion.
3. the body of persons adhering to a particular set of beliefs and practices: a world council of religions.
4. the life or state of a monk, nun, etc.: to enter religion.
5. the practice of religious beliefs; ritual observance of faith.
6. something one believes in and follows devotedly; a point or matter of ethics or conscience: to make a religion of fighting prejudice.
7. religions, Archaic. religious rites.
8. Archaic. strict faithfulness; devotion: a religion to one's vow.
Let us assume this (the posted definition) is the actual definition.
Now... what is atheism?
a⋅the⋅ism
–noun 1. the doctrine or belief that there is no God.
2. disbelief in the existence of a supreme being or beings.
Now let's compare.
1) Is atheism a set of beliefs concerning the cause, nature, and purpose of the universe, esp. when considered as the creation of a superhuman agency or agencies, usually involving devotional and ritual observances?
No. The dictionary does say, "the doctrine or belief" but a belief isn't automatically a religion. I believe peanuts taste good, but that's not a religion. Also, atheism rejects the idea of a "superhuman agency" so that disqualifies atheism from that definition.
2) Is atheism a specific fundamental set of beliefs and practices generally agreed upon by a number of persons or sects?
No. Atheists neither have a set of beliefs or practice anything. The belief that there is no God is not a set of beliefs. It's just a single belief.
3) Is atheism the body of persons adhering to a particular set of beliefs and practices: a world council of religions?
No. (See 2)
4) Is atheism the life or state of a monk, nun, etc.: to enter religion?
No. There are obviously no monks or nuns involved with atheism.
5) Is atheism the practice of religious beliefs; ritual observance of faith?
No. No ritual observances of faith.
6) Is atheism something one believes in and follows devotedly; a point or matter of ethics or conscience: to make a religion of fighting prejudice?
No. Atheism provides nothing for people to follow devotely. It also claims no codes of ethics.
7) Is atheism religions, Archaic. religious rites?
No. (See this entire entry)
8) Is atheism Archaic. strict faithfulness; devotion: a religion to one's vow?
No. There's no strict faithfulness, devotion or vows involved.
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Now, I'll admit. Dictionaries often give misconstrued definitions of atheism and agnosticism. Some define atheism as "a belief that there is no God" while some say, "disbelief in the existence." Agnosticism is more clearly defined however as, "uncertainty of all claims to ultimate knowledge."
In conclusion:
1) Atheism is not a religion.
2) Until all of the dictionaries can clearly define atheism as a "belief that God doesn't exist" or a "disbelief in God," we can never truly know what actually separates atheism from agnosticism.
Bonus conclusion:
3) Species evolution is real! :)
- Music:"Vanished," Crystal Castles
Finally, after my mom drove me to the hospital and they gave me an x-ray, they found three kidney stones inside me. One had been pushing its way in that morning.
Before this happened, I was regularly taking a lot of protein powder and unnatural supplements because I figured it'd help my vegetarian diet. I truly, truly, TRULY regret taking all that protein.
I layed, drugged up, in the E.R. for almost the entire Monday. Beside me, on the other side of this curtain, this woman had died. Not sure why, but it was very depressing. I could hear the people beside me talking and crying.
I became a vegetarian a couple years ago. I wanted to fit in more with the ideas of this group I was trying to start (Food Not Bombs). I know, kind of lame, considering I truly believe animals are a reasonable food for people. Anyways, being a vegetarian later helped me control my other eating habits... I was able to stop eating shitty foods and stick with vegetables, breads, nuts... etc etc. I see vegetarianism as a healthy diet though, if you're lucky enough to properly supplement your vitamins.
Some vegetarians I've spoke to said they got sick after some time on their diet and they later went back to meat. This one girl once told me that she felt light headed. I asked her how she supplemented her protein and she said she didn't. *face palm*
I guess, if I can leave any advice to anyone reading this... it's to just eat smart and don't over board on protein supplements because they can fuck you up badly! If you do eat meat, don't feel bad about it. It's natural and perfect for your body as long as you don't over-do the fat of it.
Also, if anyone has any advice on good sources of natural protein (besides meat), feel free to pitch in your advice. If you're a vegetarian, any similar stories or advice would also be welcomed. I'll be doing my own research as well. I'm seriously considering going back to meat even though I don't think it's the healthiest choice.
- Music:"You Sleep Too Much," Pangea
Also, I've been so distracted lately by... many different things. I don't think my online friend Krystie likes me any more. I know, it's really odd. Me, worrying myself over a 17 year old girl a state away. I'm just weird like that. But I really do like her. Today, my lower right part of my stomach was hurting. Felt like I had to pee constantly. I went to the walk-in clinic with my mom... long story short, it might be a UTI. (I was peeing blood. Eh!) There's more to the story, but I just sum shit up some times.
As for Lindsay, I'm supposed to hang out with her tonight. I'm working on making myself expect it like a friend thing. No "date" thing. That's a given I guess. We're all gonna go to Darrell's eventually and play some video games or something. Could be fun! So far, I'm not too nervous.
With all the blood peeing, online chit chatting, schooling and video game playing... my mind has been so preoccupied lately. I'm still checking into news sites though. Trying to stay up to date. Current events and social awareness to me, is really important. I don't wanna let myself slip into the apathetic black hole that is... Tampa. I recently read a CommonDreams article about the attacks in India. I love that news site. But yeah, it just seems like a really shitty situation for India. It's pretty obvious that the main options for India's people are, "get fucked" or... "get fucked." You only hear about violence when it's terrorist related, but violence occurs daily all over the world in all the cities. So while "Aktah Bin Laden Osama Ashtar (made up stereotypical name for the lulz)" makes headline news by blowing himself up... people all over the world are getting raped and killed just from living in places with low standards of living. This whole, "OMGZ! SHOCK US WITH NEWS OF TERRORIST ATTACKS!" is, if anything, just a distraction from real issues.
Long story short, I kind of ditched Lindsay's (the girl I like and keep talking about) party while I was borderline drunk. It was a bad decision. I ended up at two other lame parties. I don't know... I texted her later and she said she wasn't mad at me. Actually, she was talking about how she was playing some video game. I suggested that we should play together sometime. She agreed to it.
I don't know what to make of anything that happened that night, let alone... Lindsay. I guess I'll just go on as I always do expecting nothing. What ever happens will happen. No need to get worked up over this shit any more.
- Music:"Scan To Print," Rosa
But when that figurative little man yells at me, it also makes me feel depressed. Depressed people don't try. They rather sit at home and sulk or maybe go to someone else they already feel close to. I already feel like that's gonna be my little roller coaster this weekend.
Earlier, I wrote about this girl at my work. The one who I kinda saw myself "fitting in" with. Just because... she seemed to be a pretty open kinda girl. Nice also. Well, I guess to be more "in" with the people at Publix (since she had said she sort of excluded herself from co-workers outside of work like I do), she's throwing a party tomorrow night and she invited me (as well as almost everyone who works at Publix).
Cool right? Well, you know me. I just get wrapped up in small things like this. "Oh, maybe she's gonna like me!" And then the little man yells, "NO! YOU'VE MET PLENTY OF GIRLS BEFORE! IT'S GONNA FAIL LIKE IT DID EVERY OTHER SINGLE TIME!" And ofcourse I get in my "fuck it" mode. But I still debate it in my head until it drives me crazy, because I think in depth a lot! I mean... I pretty much reflect on every action I do. It's intense! Mentally!
I wish I could go into this with a care-free attitude and just be myself and relax. Maybe I should drink a little. Ha. But I'm also getting kinda tired of alcohol. Not in the straight-edge way, but in the "why am I doing this to myself?" kind of way. I don't really think hang overs are worth it. It's too easy to have a good time sober. Unless ofcourse... I'm all tensed up around people I don't feel comfortable with.
Fuck alcohol. Fuck that little man. Fuck it.
- Mood:
DOOM
Anyways, if you're not busy today you should totally find a spot near you and protest!
If you need me, I'll be at:
Joe Chillura Courthouse Square
602 E. Kennedy Blvd.
Tampa, FL
1:30 pm (TODAY!)
- Peace, justice and (a)n(a)rchy!
He's kind of like Atom and His Package but a lot better (in my opinion). He was there with Whole Wheat Bread and MC Chris. After Totally Michael, I stayed for a couple Whole Wheat Bread songs, but then I just left. Besides my friend was excited for the election results. Ha, yes... I dragged two of my friends to the show.
Anyways, I have the whole show on YouTube. It was a good show, but I think the shows are better when more people know who it is. Everyone basically just went there for MC Chris. I've also decided to start a LiveJournal community for people who like folk punk music. Maybe that'll get going or it might just die... you never know!
If you like that type of music you should check it out. Just click here.
Also, I plan on starting my own garden soon. I'll probably be digging it up shortly after I post this. Not sure what to grow though. I know tomatoes. I love tomatoes. Maybe strawberries. Those are good too. My friend suggested oranges... haha. You can't really have a mini orchard inside a garden though. Tsk tsk. I think it'll be a fun project though.
- Mood:
peaceful - Music:"Dancing Is My Direct Action," Guerilla Dance Ensemble
1) December 1993 - Bill Clinton (along with Brian Mulroney and Carlos Salinas de Gortari) signed NAFTA (North American Free Trade Agreement).
2) January 1994 - NAFTA was passed.
3) November 2003 - FTAA (Free Trade Area of the Americas) passed as an extension to NAFTA.
4) May 2004 - George W. Bush signs CAFTA (Central American Free Trade Agreement).
5) ... and many more.
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Many of these trade agreements were passed with much opposition, rioting and protest. Today we see the effects first hand of what spreading unregulated capitalism to these countries has caused. Multinational corporations are doing deals with terrorists, kids are having their limbs chopped off in Africa, sweatshops are now the source for almost all of the cheap imported manufactured products, India's farmers are committing suicide because of hopelessness and coffee farmers in Ethiopia are losing more money because their goods were thrown into a multinational corporate wood chipper and spit out into Starbucks cups.
This is the same thing as when Europe colonized almost all of Africa. The western countries think they can just steal all of the world's resources and then blame everyone else. Today, we have white supremacists giving cognitive learning ability IQ tests to try and determine which race has the highest average IQ. They use biased studies to try and imply that Africans and Latinos are just too stupid to "develop" their own countries with modern technological advances. But if you learn about the history of European imperialism, you'd know that Europeans were the ones pitting tribes versus each other in their never ending quest for more power and money.
Hopefully Obama doesn't follow the same predatory economic ideals of the past. Hopefully he can bring living wages to the world's poorest capitalists. Hopefully he can do something to help people instead of just stealing from everyone. He ran his campaign on "hope" so... we'll see.
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EDWARDS: [to Obama]: The problem with the Peru trade agreement [which Obama voted for] is you are leaving the enforcement of environmental and labor regulations in the hands of George Bush. I wouldn't trust George Bush to enforce anything, certainly not trade obligations.
OBAMA: Well, in a year's time, it'll be me who's enforcing them. We're going to make sure that the right thing is being done. It is absolutely critical for us to understand that NAFTA was an enormous problem. The permanent trade relations with China, without some of the enforcement mechanisms that were in there, that you voted for, was also a significant problem. And we've got to all move forward as Democrats to make sure that we've got trade deals that work for working people and not just for corporate profits.
Now, for this Friday... my work-buddies (who I usually only see at work) are really pushing me to go to this (costume) party on Friday. We're supposed to all get trashed off some beer keg.
1) I don't have a costume. I don't wanna spend money on one. I really never have any spirit for any of the holidays. Ha, but maybe I can find something around the house.
2) I know only some of the people there... and it's only through work. Like, I don't see them outside of work often. So the idea of seeing them see me in a costume outside of work sort of gives me that weird feeling.
3) I think I'm gonna need to bring some vodka. It'll get me drunk faster and I won't have to drink lots of that nasty beer. Beer should only be used as a chaser. Also, it'll probably help me escape the awkwardness that I'll be feeling.
Damn you Halloween! lol
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